felisviolaceous | Yea...I'm just a talken tonight!

Just a quick warning...I'm actually in a bitchy mood and well...I'm gonna BITCH!!!!

I just came back from visiting with my best friend and her husband and brand new baby at the hospital. That baby has dark hair with blonde highlights that us older women PAY for!!!! That baby is going to be a heartbreaker!!!!

Anyway, as I look around the room I see all these flowers and balloons and as happy as I am for them...and I'm estactic for them, they've been trying for a couple of years and were finally successful, SO YEAH THEM!!!!...but anyway, I'm jealous!!!!

Why? Because I see all the family and friends support that these two have. I also see husband not only there helping with baby but is staying overnight with baby and wife making sure all is well. Both are sleep deprived and crabby and yet they are THERE supporting eachother!! And, of course, it's not just them that I've seen this way...my Brother and his wife make me horribly jealous of their perfect little family. Sorry, but it's true. I was supposed to have that!!!!

Did I get this when I delivered my Little One???? Nope!!!! I got to see my parents for 4hrs after Little One was born and then they were off back to the States. Now don't jump down my throat...I'm not mad or upset with them in any way what-so-ever!!!! It wasn't their fault, they bought tickets to Germany and were there for two whole weeks!!!! Little One just waited to the very day before they fly back before making her Grand Entrance! I'm glad that they get to be there for the birth and visiting after. I will never be able to thank them enough for that.

No, what I'm upset about and jealous of is that I didn't have friends come visit me at all. And I was lucky if I got an hour a day with my then-husband while I was in the hospital for a solid week!!!! I got not flowers or balloons or little stuffed animals or cards of congrats or anything like that!!!!

To make a long story short...I know...TOO LATE!!!!

I FEEL FUCKING CHEATED!!!!

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I completely understand. It is not fair. I totally agree. Esp after having Bug, I cannot understand your ex. You have Little One and she is amazing. Just focus on that and your man :-)

I'm sorry. You were cheated. I know what it's like to have "friends" let you down at momentous moments in your life, when you want to share your joy or sorrow with someone.

Thankfully, I don't have that problem so much since I moved to Austin. My friends here truly rock.

When I had my first child, my husband was watching MTV (in the birthing room) during the birth. We almost had to name the kid "Al" cuz he was born to Paul Simon's "You Can Call Me Al." Later, the hospital had a steak dinner for the new parents. He didn't show up; I later found out he was busy getting a blow job from a 15-year-old at the tiem.

Second child, my mother-in-law showed up a couple of weeks before I was due and started demanding that I give birth on her time schedule. She was so evil that my blood pressure skyrocketed and my doctor said that I had toxemia and that if I didn't get that woman out or move to a hotel myself, I'd die.

I'm jealous of all those perfect people who have Better Homes and Gardens fairy tale birthings, too. I know how you feel!

On the up side, I'd bet a million dollars that if you ever had a baby with your current man, we couldn't pry him out of the hospital with a crowbar. And I'll bet you'd have a room full of flowers and balloons and friends waiting in the hall to see you because of the two-guests-per-patient restriction!

I guess you've come a long way, baby...

I SOOO understand your feelings here. You had a raw deal then. Now you have a deal (scrith) that makes you raw... pleasently raw.

This is making me think... time for my own post.

Yea...I'm just a talken tonight!

Big Hug

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I feel ya

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