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Had a thought this morning in between the multiple jabs of my fingers hitting the snooze button..."the reason I am having trouble with accepting that my child is able to survive world as an adult is because I don't even feel like an adult!!"

The last few months I've been noticing that I still think like I did when I was in highschool.  Heck, I even react to many situations and people like I did back in highschool.  This isn't neccessarily a bad thing, I have noticed that I have had nice adult level revelations and inner brain/heart discoveries.  Even my intense need to make this world a more fairer and balance of powers has driven me the last year or so.  One of these days I will have a sit down with Tyr. :)

I've also noticed that adults my age and even older are practically doing the same thing.  Especially when I went to my family reunion where not only was I NOT relegated to the kids table, but hearing the stories of my Aunts & Uncles and my successful ending to a confrontation with one of my Uncles; I've discovered, we ARE all teenagers trying to find the party.  It's weird feeling.  The whole older and wiser thing...????

I don't feel adult.  The responsibilites changed, but really...mow lawn because Dad said do it - mow lawn because housing association said do it...do homework because teaches said do it - make quotas at work because bosses said do it...doing chores to and keeping good grades to keep us from losing privaliges - pay bills to keep from losing "privaliges".    We are still teenagers!  The types of responsibilites have changed and yet not changed.  I can see the point of becoming a hermit off the grid...more opportunities to party.  

Seeing this video this morning after this heavy thinking did nothing to make me think any differently. https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=LwmbUzMViiU  


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